Fearing the world

Many times I think my need to make a lot of friends is tied to my fear of being forgotten. Almost all my life, I wasn’t seen I was invisible to my family and my friends. Until I moved to Dallas, and I changed myself, and I became me. I don’t know why that is one of my fears. It’s not like if you leave me in the car, I’m going to panic its more general like my fear of failing.I’m in the collegiate. Every day I’m scared of ruining everything I need this because i have no idea what I want to do after high school, so if I have a degree, I won’t disappoint my family and be like most of them. I don’t know if jst scared of not passing my classes and not passing the staar and not passing sophomore year then not graduating or becoming successful. I’ve seen most of my family struggle for things and money. I don’t want to be like that; I want to help them and live a good life. Therefore I’m scared every day at every second that I’m going to mess something up.