Inside the mind of Heaven

I’ve never really been one to show emotions to anyone.No one has ever seen me cry sept at funerals. Which accured a lot over the past three years, my aunt, uncle, and grandpa died. Then my other uncle found out he has cancer, so maybe another one soon.I’m not one to have people close to me. I’m usually the person that cares for everyone else and makes everyone else happy. It’s weird because everyone perceives me as always happy, which I usually am, but then again, I’m generally in my head thinking. I don’t trust anyone, and I hate being vulnerable. The one thing I love is making people happy its the best thing ever. Telling someone they’re beautiful, and seeing their smile and face light up is astonishing. Even making someone laugh or make there day a little bit better, I love it.I’m also an angry/empty person from time to time, but all it takes is a cooldown, and I’m back to my regular self. I usually lay in the dark and listen to music or close my eyes, and think to myself. I have come such a long way from who I used to be old me would be in awe of who I am now. I used to be depressed and shy and that one lonely girl now I know everyone, and I’m the loudest one. Anyways I’m an old soul, and I’m wise in many ways. That’s why I know a lot of things about life in general. All in all, there is a sneak peek into my mind i didn’t really dent the surface because my mind is a maze, but there it is.